"Don't be so hard on yourself."
These two phrases ~ I've heard too often lately.
And then .... I go trying to explain that THIS is the good part.... So, it's ok. Because.... Yeah yeah yeah....used to be.... Blah blah .... now i know....cause I figured it out! Lemme show you....
But, I can't.... Cause I'm not quite there yet.
And I haven't taken enough time to slow down and see that....
Because time is tick tick ticking ....
And I am running on fumes here....
And I can't be in the same place when my birthday hits....
I can't take more time to "get well" because I am well!
I could get a job at Target now.... I can. But, I need to prove that I can do what I can do. I have to keep moving until I prove this. I have to finish something. I can't cross this finish line.... Hands in the air "eye LIVED THROUGH 38 YEARS OF THIS" style..... If I don't prove that I have something to offer. I can't be a parasite again this year....
I don't want to be a parasite?
Yeah, maybe I need to give myself a break.
Maybe I should go a little easier on me.
And, I've got some clarity now.
I need to earn a living.
I need to do certain things to LIVE.
I need a roof (my own).
I need to keep moving on my projects
in the pace that suits me.... For health not for money.
And, guess who has a job? And a roof! And a safe space to move ANY direction at ANY pace! And ANY time!!!!
Me! I got a job with an artist.... where I can use my skills and learn a whole bunch more! And.... We have fun. ☺️
Roof wise ~ I'm covered at the moment. And, with a coupla options for "my own" to look at in the next few days.
Also, I know I'm not a parasite. And, I was being too hard on myself.
So, I'm gonna give myself a break.
Happy Birthday week too me! ☺️
Not proofing this one. Break time.